I don't know why but I decided to revamp the layout for my nearly dead xanga haha...
Well, someone urged me to write...Someone wrote a note on facebook that I don't feel like commenting on facebook itself, but just writing about the whole thing in here. I don't know if he even knows my xanga or not, but he said that happiness is "actually finding that one person you can spend your life with" which I personally think isn't true. The problem about finding "happiness" is that what a majority of us THINK will make us happy, isn't what will actually make us happy. I used to think getting married and all those frills would be my happiness, but now I look back at it, it doesn't seem that way at all...Rather, I think being married would make me UNHAPPY. The thing that I
think will make me happy is actually being somebody and being successful to myself. In other words, there is no one size fits all for a person's "long-term" happiness.
This also reminded me of the movie, "I'm a Cyborg, but That's Okay" that Neo told me to watch

!! It was a cute funny movie, but the ending really broke it for me. I'm basically sort of ruining it for everyone now, but the ending basically said that the meaning of life is love. That instantly made me want to stop watching all these damn love dramas. It made me feel...Wow, what's this bullshit they're trying to feed people?! I believe that life itself is fulfilling destinies. Everything that happens, happens for a reason. Whether we live just to die, we affect someone somehow...Even if we walk around the damn block to buy some soda, it still affects the people that see you and the purchase you made at the store. It's inevitable. This love thing is total bullshit. What about people that kill themselves? They don't love anything! You can say they might be killing themselves to escape some type of emotional/mental pain and let themselves rest (sort of loving themselves that way), but that can't be for every suicidal case. Okay, I sound really bitter, but I feel that I experienced enough to really look through this whole "facade." IF I ever have kids, I'm going to make sure they don't watch happily ever afters and know reality. And as this other guy said, romantic stories are basically porno for women.
It's a fantasy. I want to add more to this, but I'm really hungry.

Also, seriously, all this thinking makes Guitar Hero so much harder for me to play!